wtf

heyatch ppls,

you know what.. i'm feeling so bad! dunno why but really, i am feeling so bad! it's getting closer to school and the whole halfterm exam thing. i'm afraid i couldn't make it. and also the shitty thingy at school. i need to escape my afterschool lesson tomorrow, but i've skipped quite a lot! but i have another important thing to do. *can't decide* and alsoooo my bf didn't even bother to text me, while i have sooo much things to ask, and million words to say. i dont know for sure, am i miss him or need to leave him. uhh feeling sick and the condition right now is totally unsupporting! come on world, what the hell f'ing thing is up? another thing is, i'm bored. yeah, i'm bored. with what? WITH EVERY SINGLE THING THAT HAPPENED ON EVERY LITTLE THING I DID! got it? i am half mad so need to end this post immediately. i dont wanna post the things that i shouldn't.

mucho love,
littlemiss creepy
neira

just something to write about

guys i'm back with the daily history haha.

but before that, i need to complain about some little things, which is going on in our lives now. not too far, it's about the living in jakarta, where i exacly live. suddenly, i feel it's not that good living a life out here. so these are what most people complain about.. "bad air and horrible traffic!" isn't it?? please be honest people who live here! dont you guys feel it? and some people are not really noce too tough, some of them are just too bad. criminal is everywhere! it's just not that save to hang around the town anymore. and i've met some people who ruined their future, even before they reach it! you know what i mean? they did some things that they shouldn't do, and they think it's a part of having fun, well honestly IT IS! but you gotta watch where you're going guys! life is not that short and some better things are waiting on your future, so dont you dare to ever waste it!

alright then, i've found another fun things to do when you are fucking bored!
it is.. omegle-ing!! haha maybe some of you did this thing to. for me it's just fun to talk with strangers and then be anyone we wanna be, and do some stupid tricks to them, then disconnect the chat before they are getting mad! lol but be careful you may find a lot of sex addicts there, so if you do, quickly disconnect it! unless you wanna have fun with one of them. so so and so, yesterday is quite bad, it was kinda big small shitty little thing happened! cant explain, just wanna let you know how bad i felt. and my bf is somewhere out there, know that i miss him so badly but he didn't even bother to reply my text!! how sick? okay just need a rest and hope things will be just fine.

alrite, need to end this now.
buh-bye
-nei

what most tennage girls exactly want!!

in my opinion..
this is what we(teenage girls) exactly want..

-perfect love story
-great bff
-freedom
-having a LOT of friends
-FUN
-understanding parents
-hot boyfriend
-money
-attention
-amazing things
-party!
-a wink from a cute senior boys ;)
-privacy
-candies, lollipops, and stuff
-clothes and shoes, duh?
-boys, do i need to say more?
-dreams and imagination!
-magic
-and some things that suddenly stuck inside my mind

so what is it like in your opinion?

*full of thoughts*
nei

Rest In Peace Egi

everyone, i have a bad news today :(

my friend, Edgar or maybe known as Egi, passed away this morning. maybe some of you already know the reason. and i guess i would not explain it here.
so this is for Egi, maybe i've known you for a while, yep we don't really know each other, but i know you by your huge popularity at school. some of my friends said that you are a really good boy and you are so polite to the senior, yeah that's good. and even tough i didn't really know you, but i am so sure that you are good. nobody could ever expected that your accident will have a tragic ending like this. but it's your destiny boy, i couldn't say much but i hope you will have a better life in heaven and may you rest in peace.
and for his family, specially his twin Enrico, i hope you could survive this situation and you guys could accept it. keep moving on in life and i wish you all the best :)

love,
neira.

Love Song

"The Way I Loved You"

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

by: taylor swift

NEW

:)

so here i am, in a whole new world (seriously, it is not a part of my past). i got a new sweet "someone" and makes me feel totally in love :p and i think it's a great start and i'm still hoping for everything better. now, i just keep on doing the things that i should do and keep on preparing for a better day for tomorrow. the old me has just gone and you guys should prepare yourselves to see the new me, either it's better for you or maybe worse :) but i'm always trying to be better so i hope you will love me more than before. so thank you very much for everyone my friends, my family, my teachers, all of you. without you guys, i could never reach this far. thanks a lot, what you gave is something that i can't achieve and i know what i could give is something priceless, so i hope all of you can just enjoy my new personalities :)

okay, suddenly i got this thing in my head "some days you wish had never started, then comes along you wish it never ends" yep it's true! i got it from a movie called "in a day" it's not really good tough, but i love the words! it is sooo true isn't it? i've been trough some days such like that and i wish i could repeat all the times i had :)

now, let me inroduce you my girls at school! love them!

KANIA amalia
she is a bit boyish. so we(me and the other girls) are planning for a make over for her! haha wondering how fun it will be. alright she is nice, funny, understanding and a good listener! she's so best ever. and i can talk about anything with her and so on.

natalia NADIA
this girl fell in love soooo many times! haha i guess she couldn't love without l-o-v-e. but she's so great too. talking about love with her is so worth it! she is helpful and understanding. she's pretty too, no wonder why boys are staring at her.

rite. enough for now.
*kisskiss*

start all over

~hiya guys~

i am finally home. :) :( don't know i supposed to smile or cry haha..

first of all, i wanna say thanks to my soul sister, Miranda Janeline.
thank you so much Mira for everything you did you are the best ever :)
and i am sorry for my mistakes i will try to be better.

and i guess it's time for me to change and i should start all over again. i made some stupid mistakes and i feel so sorry about that, i need to repair my self and start a whole new world. school is getting better, friends are great! also thank you so much for everyone who has helped me on my path. just don't know what to say. that's all for now

byee