trying to survive 4 days without eating or even drinking.

so i am in a dilemma. it's about to survive without eating or even drinking for 4 days. i've wasted my dad's money about Rp 4.300.000 for things that i don't know what. crazy huh? NOPE. actually that is what i called fun. rite? YUP. and i don't even think i could survive, but why can't i just give it a try? and really i am just pissed off, cause i think HE is just ditched me and my sister for HIS girlfriend. what kind of family? SHIT kind? F*CK kind? YES! it seems like after all all he cares about is HER! well, i mean like didn't SHE USED HIS MONEY FOR HER OWN HAPPINESS?? LIKE WHAT, SHOPPING?? GOING TO THE SALON? ---- OH I KNOW SHE DID! WHATEVER IT IS. at least i am not the only one to blame. now HE is effing F*CK! HE asked me to return the money i used. ANOTHER SHIT KIND FAMILY??? HEY, JUST ASKED YOUR GIRLFRIEND TO RETURN THE MONEY SHE USED FOR HER OWN HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you know, these past few days, i started to think that i need my family and i think it's such an important think. but now i know i was wrong. and i should've think that way. family is just someone that God gave to be with us, ALMOST ONLY TO SHARE A HOUSE. that's all. they won't help much actually. what else can my family share? where money return is asked. nothing else eft to be shared. love even burned away. HOLY CRAP FUCK DAMN SHITTTTT! ---------------- sorry. but i mean it.

as an escape, Simple Plan songs playing through my headset with full volume 'til i can hear every melody of the song and slowly it started to cool me down. well well well.